What Drives Us in Life?

What I'm going to share with you is some random thoughts put to paper in and effort to fully understand myself, my thoughts, my feelings, and every aspect of what makes me, me. Its an amazing feeling sometimes when you just sit back and think deeply upon many things in your life, your experiences, how you felt at those times, what you planned to do, and what lessons you've learned through trial and error. Its a moment of growth.

See I believe each of us have the seeds of growth and success inside of us we just need nourishment to grow these seeds to trees of opportunity. I never had an ideal childhood and with our society as it is today, many children share the same path. The key is what do you do with it. How do you grow from these experiences. Life to me is a constant learning experience that you continue to go through your entire life. God created us in his likeness and therefore we can participate in the creative process; all we need is the right thought and attitude toward life and circumstances and nothing could ever overcome us.

Below are some of my thoughts I want to share with you that I had one night that inspired me to write them down. I express myself through poetry as well. I did this after my father's suicide too help cope with the loss. I still remember my feelings in that time and how its forever changed my perspective of the world and my responsibilities as a father.

I wonder sometimes why my life has purpose, meaning, sustenance. Confusing at times and others almost a sense of being suspended in air with no support. My struggles in life are a sign of my thought life; a direct reflection of the inner turmoil. But yet something inside of me stirs, it fights back saying; go you must go on, greatness is before you working in your life. In the midst of my trials I smile happily to the world and testify life is grand and full of opportunity.

I make people smile and feel better about themsleves and life, is this my calling? Inside my mind a raging battle goes on between good and bad, positive and negative. The grieving of my father's suicide, the drug addiction of my mother, the mental and physical abuse I endured as a child. What does this all mean? God is in control but what do I make of it? What does he want to tell me?

My soul tells me I will never break. I can bear the burdens of life and still be victorious. With each of my struggles I become stronger, wiser, and more grateful of life. How satisfying would life be if everything was easy and fell into your lap? How grateful one becomes when we labour and fight for what we want in life. When one achieves greatness must not you keep it? One's character has been developed and tested through trials ans struggles. Napoleon Hill once said "within every adversity and defeat lies the seed of equivelant or equal benefit." With greatness comes responsibility and with responsibility comes leadership.

People need leadership; people need direction. Some people today are drowning in their own self pity and mediocrity. We as human beings are made in likeness of God. He wants us to have everything our hearts desires, all that is good of course. He showers us with blessings that we take for granted everyday. Just think about the simple and small things in life that you are blessed with that other people could only dream of having.

Jesus said, "knock and the door shall be opened to you, ask and you shall receive." God wired us wit feelings and emotions and our own sense of free will. Saying that we cannot achieve what want is to say that God cannot create miracles, that's ludicurous. God would not give us dreams without also giving us the tools and means to reach them. Everything you see in your life that is manmade was first conceived in the mind as a thought.

Our minds can be a magical and wonderful place or they can be like jail cells that confine us to torture and agony of our own making.

Well that's page one and I have more to come. Please read the next blog for the continuation of my random writings. In life we all want significance and progress toward our expectations. We must first learn what drives us and fuels our passion then we can examine our thought patterns and see if they match. If not, a self assessment is needed. Sometimes we don't even realize why we do things. I'm guilty myself. I hope you enjoyed this and I'll have more to come.

Thanks

Dustin Swigart

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